I’ve had a hard time maintaining a positive outlook over the last few months, school doesn’t bring the excitement it used to and work can feel more like an obligation than an opportunity sometimes. I’ve started to resent people with free time, even people who I consider friends. I’m stressed almost all the time, always feeling like I’m forgetting something, constantly thinking about what the next day or next week will bring. I’ve become more of an introvert than I ever thought possible.
This is not how I want to be living. Starting today, I am making a concentrated effort to maintain a positive outlook. It’s not going to be simple and it’s not a foolproof solution. It’s a start.
While working on my portfolio for my capstone class, I’ve been thinking about the insane amount of tangible things I have produced throughout my almost three years of college, and I am incredibly proud of how far I’ve come. As a freshman, I had zero idea what I wanted to do with my life or what I was capable of achieving. Looking back at all the things I have been given the opportunity to do, I’m so incredibly grateful.
It’s a fantastic motivator to know that the struggles are worth it for the end result. It’s a comfort to know that my stress now will pay off when I graduate and have awesome experiences to pull from for the rest of my life.
There will be days when I’d rather do anything else besides go to a personal finance class. There will be days when I don’t have anything to show for my efforts. But there will also be days when I can look back on my efforts with pride and a sense of peace.
College is hard, but all ll I can do is my best and that’s enough.