Monday, December 28, 2015

Dorms, diversity, and delight

I love college.

I have met some of the greatest, most interesting people. I have seen amazing, new things. And yes, I've also learned a lot.

I'm living the college experience. And although the classes are (sometimes) interesting and I've grown to really like Ramen and Easy Mac, the people I've met are the best part.

I've met people from all over the country. Dancers, singers, scientists, writers, designers...the list goes on.  I've met biologists that belt Broadway classics at 2 a.m., I've met passionate poets who love to play sports, I've met dancers who draw beautiful pictures. The friends I've made could not be a more diverse group, and yet we are still incredibly close. We respect our differences and learn from each other. 

Living in a dorm has been a journey for me. I'll admit, like many of my peers, I was nervous before I moved in. Will I like my roommate? Will I like the other people on my floor? Will the communal bathrooms be gross? Will I have to eat alone every day? And my fears were washed away quickly when I discovered all the amazing people I got to live with.

Simply being able to walk two feet down the hall to see one of my best friends--that's the best. Any lonely afternoon can be saved by a simple text of "are you in your room?" 

When you live with people you seem to do everything together. You eat together, you study together, you even sleep together (in separate beds of course). Sometimes it can seem overwhelming but the truth is when you're on your own--you miss it.

The first couple weeks of Christmas break are nice. You can sleep in a quiet room, you can eat home cooked meals, you can see your childhood friends. Best of all, you don't have classwork to do. But you can't help but feel lonely. Making plans isn't as easy when you have to drive over to your friends house instead of just knocking on their door. You start to miss the friends you've become so close to.

I love college. The friends I've made throughout my first semester will always be with me. I appreciate every one of them so much and I know they are shaping me into a better, more accepting person.

As the year draws to a close I can only describe my feelings with one word. Gratitude. Thank you to the people who are there for me through thick and thin. I will always be a shoulder to cry on, an ear to talk to, and a hand to hold.

Happy New Year!


Friday, December 18, 2015

I want it all

Ask me what I want. Go ahead, I finally have the answer. 

I want to wake up every morning next to the man I love. I want to roll over and kiss him gently. Good morning love. 

I want to walk down the hall and hear the shuffling of my children’s feet as they get ready for school. 

I want to do meaningful work. I want to write things about my life. About the world. About love. I want to touch people's minds and I want people to touch mine. I want to make a difference in the world, or as silly as it may sound, in someone’s world. 

I want to curl up in a sunlight-drenched chair on Sunday's and read. I want to spend the afternoons in the woods admiring the leaves on fall days, and spend the evenings wrapped up with the man I love and a cup of tea. 

I want to teach my children about the world. The good and the bad. The truth and what it means. I want to teach them to be curious and kind and accepting. I want to encourage their dreams and stand by them every step of the way. 

I want to keep learning about myself and the changing world I'm a part of. I want to accept when I am wrong and know that it's okay change my mind. 

But what I want most of all is to love and be loved. And if you ask me, I feel like I'm off to a pretty good start.


Tuesday, December 1, 2015

(Greatly) Extended Family

The holiday season is in full-swing. This is probably my favorite time of year. Sure summer is great, but there's nothing that can quite match the splendor of the holidays.

There's just an excitement that hangs in the air from Thanksgiving until New Year's Day. The holidays are a great time to relax, eat massive amounts of food, and spend time with friends and family.

Family. Something we all have--whether we see them often or not. It seems like on every holiday my social media is flooded with pictures of families eating together, laughing together, simply being together.

And for many years and many holidays that is not something my family has been able to do. Not only is my family very small but we also live extremely far away from each other. It would be ridiculous to expect my elderly grandmother to travel eight hours to come visit. It's often difficult to travel nine hours in the complete opposite direction to visit my aunt and uncle.

With everyone so scattered to the winds I accept the holiday phone calls and the half-empty dinner tables. It's not hard to have a great time with my immediate family but I can't help but wish that for one day we could all be together.

And although nothing can replace my own family I've found that spending time with friends and other people's families can be just as fulfilling. Friends are the family that you get to choose. Good company is good company, blood relation or not.

I am thankful for the life that I have and the people in it, even when it seems we're so far apart. I hope you are too.